Still Here

I’ve been quiet for a while.

Some of that silence was rest.
Some of it was grief.
Most of it was just life happening.

This past year, I became a father.
And not long before that, I lost mine.

There’s no way to explain what that feels like unless you’ve lived it.
To hold your son in your arms for the first time…
while still feeling the weight of a father you can’t call anymore.

It’s joy and pain in the same room.
It’s crying for two different reasons — and not knowing which one will win that day.

That season changed me.

It made me think deeper about legacy.
It made me look at my son, Chapel, and wonder —
Did my dad ever look at me the way I look at him?

I took a step back from Heaven Fashion House.
Not because I stopped caring,
but because I needed space to ask myself the hard questions.

Is this still the assignment?
Is the vision still alive?
Or was this something for a past version of me?

The truth is: I almost let it go.
But something in me couldn’t walk away.

This has never just been a brand to me.
It’s a part of who I am.
It’s a calling — not just a company.
And callings don’t go quiet just because you do.

So I’m coming back — but with a different posture.

Not building for speed.
Not creating for clout.

I’m building slowly.
Carefully.
With more heart.
With more clarity.

I want this house to be built in a way that my son can be proud of.
One day, he’ll read this.
And I hope he sees it for what it is — a father’s offering.
Something sacred.
Something real.

Kendall Crute
Founder, Heaven Fashion House